Tuesday, 15 October 2013

On ambition

am·bi·tion [am-bish-uhn]  Show IPA
an earnest desire for some type of achievement or distinction,as power, honour, fame, or wealth, and the willingness to strive for its attainment: Too much ambition caused him to be disliked by his colleagues.
the objectstate, or result desired or sought after: The crown was his ambition.
desire for work or activity; energy: I awoke feeling tired and utterly lacking in ambition.
verb (used with object)
to seek after earnestly; aspire to.

Ambition is a strange concept. I have, for a long time, judged myself and others on their lack of ambition or success, only to realise that ambition and success are relative. 

For a long time I subscribed to the belief that success could only come if I followed the path that had been laid out for me by society: school, GCSEs, A Levels, University, my degree would mean I would instantly get a well paid job, marriage, children, death. On reading, that sentence is infinitely depressing. Of course, I have friends that have gone down that route and who am I to judge them? It is, however, not for me.

Another fact I have come to realise is that ambitions do not have to be life long. They do not have to be things we can not hope to achieve; in fact, quite the opposite. Ambitions should be realistic and we should put plans in place to achieve them, just as we set objectives in our working lives. This was always my problem; I had so many ambitions, so many goals and each year would come round and I'd think 'what happened?' I'm pretty sure what happened is that I sat on my arse doing absolutely nothing and expected things to happen on their own. Of course luck plays a part, there are always going to be 'right place right time' moments, but I am a true believer that we make our own destiny.

What I have learned, however, is that I like to be surrounded by ambitious people. I like my friends to be doing well and better than me, as I find it motivating and them interesting. I like to read the blogs of people within my profession who are pushing boundaries and putting themselves out there. I love the new world of plus size blogging that I have discovered and currently find that a huge inspiration, not just for outfits, but for confidence, body positivity (yes I'm sure that's a word) and general support. 

So, some ambitions that I set myself this year:

1. To not let work take over my life and see my friends more. So far, this has been difficult. I had a promotion at work and, frankly, it has taken over my life. However, I have been much more active in contacting my friends and going out, even if it's just for coffee.

2. Learn a language. This has been on my To Do list forever. I never took a language GCSE and it's one of my biggest regrets. This weekend I will be attending The Language Show at Olympia to get a better idea of which language I'm suited to and would be better for me work/life wise.

3. To work for myself. Another ambition which has been on my list for most of my life. It has always been a dream to work for myself and this year I finally took the plunge. Granny Flat Candles is now in operation and we'll be selling at our first Christmas market in November :)

4. To get fitter. This one is a little bit vague. I wasn't expecting to run marathons, but I would like to play rugby again and I'm disappointed that I haven't pushed myself to do that. However, in 2 weeks time I will be climbing Mount Snowdon for charity, which I expect to kill me, but it's not worth it unless it's a challenge eh?

Oh, and one more thing, if you don't succeed IT'S OKAY. The worst thing of all is never to try.